I am more than any haiku could see

I am more than any sonnet could ever be

I am nothing but mere words without you

I am everything but perfect with you

I’m always at best near you

but a jack*ss when alone with you

You turn me on, you turn me off

can’t you see you got me?

Whenever we’re together, I’m ecstatic

But a saddo when you go

I love your company with every word you say

But hate the time when it pass by

You’re a rain in every sunny day

You always ask if we are good

even though you know we’re not

but I still love you, deep inside

Covering with make up,

hoping the tears would stop.

Let my hair blind my eyes,

hoping it would take the lies.

‘Won’t let the mascara blacken my heart.

Fill my face with powder, and hide pains,

pout my lips and put some red lipstick,

to cover my bleeding heart.

Will the powder cover the pain?

Will the gloss keep the lies?

This is driving me insane.

How will I move on?

Make up should make us beautiful,

but instead it made me feel alone.

Lip gloss, lip balm, lip stick: why do we have choices?

While in love, we only have one heart that barely chooses.

I turned to look behind.

I see you forcing yourself not to cry.

I turned and look at you after some time.

I saw you turned to a beast before my very eye.

 

It scares me to lookat you

even more because I know

I am the one who turned you into

the beast that breaks my heart in two.

 

My head says I need to go,

but my heart says don’t.

I want to stay here,

but our love’s forbidden.

 

I want to be with you forever,

even though I know it’s impossible.

Loving you is like I’m in hell,

’cause you burn my heart.

I needed my heart to mend

and you had your shoulder to lend.

I wanted time to be left alone

But I needed someone, that, you had known.

 

I needed a helping hand,

you reached out, and touched my hand.

You saw me at my worst.

You said seeing me fall makes you hurt.

 

You said it will all pass.

You helped me stand again.

With you by my side,

I think I can face it now.

 

Facing challenges with you,

makes me feel so new.

I’m happy with you here

when my heart was in tears.

I try to pretend I’m fine

but when you read between the line,

you’ll see how down I am now,

and my head, I bow.

 

My earth outside

they think I’m fine,

but my world inside

it’s falling apart.

 

Some people ask if I’m alright,

I just say things

that are not really true

’cause I don’t know who to talk to.

 

I’m so sarcastic

but I’m still optimistic.

After all this suffering,

I can now do everything.

When was the last time I smiled like this?

When was the last moment I laughed this way?

This part of me is what I miss.

The part of me that was gone when you went away.

 

I never thought I could get up.

I was soaked in this rain of teardrops.

But look at me now,

I’m shinier than your girl “sunshine”.

 

Now that I moved one

Please don’t bother to go

anywhere near me

’cause I like it this way.

 

First I thought I can’t do it.

I was scared to leave you.

But now I know,

I can live happily without you.

My heart skips a beat

as my face began to lit.

I saw you once again,

I became happy once gain.

 

Many years have passed

but the feeling is still the same.

Your smile, your eyes, you hair,

these are all perfect.

 

When I reminisce

and remember the times,

the laughter, fun and joy,

I really enjoy.

 

The times that we are together,

showing concern for each other,

I love you so much,

just as I love Koko crunch!

 

:p

I had seen you walk by the hall

and I really want you to call,

Call out to me sweetly my name.

Cut down this silly game you play.

 

Why won’t you talk to me?

Won’t even look at me.

Are you afraid to say “I’m sorry?”

Sorry, you can’t face me.

 

But even before you say anything or everything

my question is why?

Why did you do those things?

I don’t know what to do.

Should I or should I not trust you?

 

I’ve trusted you with all my heart

but you just broke it apart.

A feeling that I want you to know,

but I never had the chance to tell you,

is about how much I’m longing for you

Should I take or reject

the feelings that you invest?

Do I love you or not?

Will I give you all I’ve got?

 

You tell me you like me,

but sincererity is a question.

I’m still naive of what I feel.

 

If you want to be with me,

you should be for real.

Don’t feed me with lies,

because somehow it will come out.

 

I’ve expected so many things,

things that I thought will come true,

but all of these were lies,

lies that tore my heart into pieces.